Posts Tagged ‘Alcoholism’
Awards! Awards for EVERYBODY! (or – Why I Read the Blogs that I do)
I was delighted and joyed to receive a Sunshine Award from Merewoman of No Damn Blog recently, which appears to have been awarded mainly for the fact that I wanted to be a pony when I grew up.
But, an award is an award – even if it has been awarded for my childhood craziness – and I’m supposed to now share the love and pay it forward. So, at the risk of sounding like a hideous sycophant, here are a list of 10 notable bloggers that I think are fab and why.
In no particular order:
Weekend Alcoholic
This is the blog of a friend of mine known in ‘real life’, and it is very funny indeed. (I have to say that or he’ll beat me up). Particularly notable are his thoughts on the man hug – apparently, more thought goes into this than you might think.
No Damn Blog
A blogful of stunning phots, musings and observations from ‘Merewoman’ – a writer living in rural France. This blog brings me joy mainly for the delightful anecdotes and stories, and of course Wednesday Word which proves that every day, is indeed, a school day.
Profound Insanity
The philosophies of Neggz are very profound, very insane, but always amusing. A recent discovery via Weekend Alcoholic‘s blog, his observations bring me cheer.
C4rousel
Kate is another person I know in ‘real life’, and writes some amazingly ranting blog posts. Very very funny. I my faves are her rant against the espadrille, and also her thoughtful review about the TV show Glee. Proper job.
Chaz’s Journey Back
Chaz is recovering from booze, drugs, divorce and depression. I started reading this blog to get some insight as my father is an alcoholic, and my mother is a recovered alcoholic. Chaz has wise words.
Enduring Art
I like this one because the author is a bit of a misery guts (although he will probably contend this), and as you may have gathered, I enjoy reading the rantage of cranky people.
I’m not Cynical, I’ve just been taking notes
The America based author Sydney hasn’t updated this for quite a while, but I enjoy reading her musings and observations when she does 🙂
France and the Unknown
I was introduced to this blog via No Damn Blog – I like it because it is a great ‘feel good’ blog, written by an English woman living in France. She gave up the rat-race to rescue animals. What a lovely person.
TobyTheTeacher
Yet another ‘real life’ friend, and yet another person who hardly updates their blog. I like Toby’s blog because not only is it humorous, but it is also designed to improve the reader’s grasp of the English language and grammar. Which is fab for speakers of languages other than English. Or numpty’s like me.
The Vendee Blog
Another that I found out about via No Damn Blog – and fellow Sunshine Award Winner. I am particularly enjoying Jon’s The Night of the Radish yarn.
Diary of a First Child
Sort of says what it does on the tin! This is the blog of another ‘real life’ friend (one of my besties), and mother of Kyra (just about the cutest little button ever), and her practical, eco-friendly, and touching advice for new mother’s everywhere. Also she features some delicious recipes that everyone should try.
I have spoken
Christmas and Alcoholism
Being the adult child of an alcoholic parent can be tough – especially over the Christmas period.
Alcohol is slowly destroying my dad’s health. On top of the two small strokes he has had this year, the high blood pressure and his irregular heart beat, he now also has gout and a stomach ulcer. And I have real worries about his mental health.
This Christmas my Dad want’s me to go to his house again. But after what happened at Christmas last year I’m really not keen. I know I won’t enjoy the day. He’ll be drunk by midday, and possibly aggressive again.
But I honestly don’t have it in my heart not to go – and leave him on his own, or leave it to my brother and sister to deal with.
I think this is the weight of being the adult child of an alcoholic – you constantly feel guilty. Guilty that you can’t help that person, guilty for feeling so angry with them. Yes, there is part of me that doesn’t want to go there at Christmas – but that part of me also feels so guilty, after all, with the way that his health has deteriorated, this could be his last Christmas.
Alcoholism is an illness, and it doesn’t just affect the person who is an alcoholic.
Quitting alcohol for weight loss?
I only thought about it this morning, but last night was literally the first Friday night for months that I didn’t have some sort of alcohol.
Isn’t that shocking? Not that not drinking last night was in anyway hard, but then again I did stay in and feel sorry for myself – yes, I am still feeling ill, and sadly enought this morning I am nearly mute! (I’m sure that this is not a side effect of quitting smoking – I think that my quit has coincided with picking up a nasty winter cold)
Anyway, back to the no drinking: One thing I am expecting to happen by not drinking is to lose weight. I read recently about the calories in alcohol – it is amazing how many calories are in booze! In a single measure of vodka there are 55 calories. Not very much you may think, but as you can see here, I can do 10 vodka’s easily in one night. That’s 400 calories already (and not including the mixer).
In a small glass of red wine you can expect there to be 85 – 100 calories. Again, not so bad if you only have a small glass of red wine of an evening. But I can easily sink 1 bottle to myself – that’s just over 500 calories!
Did you also know that in a pint of lager you can expect there to be 190 – 200 calories. In a pint of guiness there is 210 calories, and in a pint of ale there is around 230 calories.
I don’t actually drink beer, but when I do go out, V will usually match my vodka intake with pints of beer – easily drinking 6 pints in one night. When I told him that was around1,200 calories he was quite shocked.
Then again, being the supportive old stick he is, he went out and brought some cans of beer to enjoy while playing Wii last night anyway.
I have already found that taking up a vegetarian diet has meant that I have lost a few pounds in weight…lets see if not drinking will also make a difference!
And BBC Radio 1 has a really useful widget that can work out the calories in the booze you had last night. Click here to work out your alcohol calorie intake
You can also check out Drink Aware that will let you see the calorie content of alcohol by brand
I am an alcoholic and I need help
I’m not actually an alcoholic. My father is. But these are the words that I have been waiting for him to say.
Let me tell you a little bit about my father – he is in his mid-50’s and slowly killing himself. His excessive alcohol abuse is damaging his health – he is chronically obese, sufferes from gout, high blood pressure and has been diagnosed with diabetes. He is also damaging his relationships with his family.
Christmas day 2008. Since my mother left, I have gone to my father’s house to visit him and my brother and sister, and also to cook dinner (the one year that my dad tried to cook it ended in disaster). As always, my dad was hideously drunk by 3pm, caused an arguement with my 20 year old brother, where he became physically abusive (picking up a baseball bat at one point – although I managed to disarm him), and verbally abusive towards my younger sister (18). He was threatening and I honestly felt that my younger brother and sister might be at risk, so I took them to my house (an hour and half drive away) where they stayed for a couple of nights. That was Christmas.
Christmas 2007 and Christmas 2006 went more or less the same way in terms of his drinking, but this was the first time I had felt threatened by my father.
And as usual, come Boxing Day when I called him to ‘tell him off’, he was his usual apologetic self – he was sorry and couldn’t really remember what he had done.
Now, you may think that this post is written in a very factual way – believe me, there is a lot of emotion behind this, but not having lived with my father since I was 17, I perhaps find it easier to take an observer’s viewpoint, and to be a bit more objective than perhaps I could be if I was there everyday. I am also treating this blog as a form of therapy in a way, as well as a day to day diary of my musings and recipes.
I am very aware that he is very depressed – being made redundant last year, and with his health problems (he is very overweight), and lack of education and training limiting his employment options has not helped this. Because of his violent temper exaserbated by the drinking he has isolated himself from friends and family and as a result is lonely.
So he drinks. And so the circle continues. I am concerned not only for his mental health, but also for the mental health of my younger brother and sister who still live with him.
Believe me when I say I have tried to help. My mother also suffered from alcohol addiction when I was younger, which changed her as a person into something hideous. I was with her for most of this period and so have the experience necessary! Eventually, sadly after burning many bridges, she finally admitted she had a problem, attended treatment and counselling and changed her life around.
I have helped my father with job application forms, have written him healthy eating plans, have cajoled him, have had stern words with him, and have been there to listen to him. But I am also very aware that I cannot help him any further until he admits he has a problem.
I’m hoping that this day will come sooner rather than later, when he can has a chance to save his life. I’ll keep this blog updated with progress, but if anyone reading this blog post has any advice I would be very happy to hear it.